Lessons of Bonnie and Clyde, Besides Sid and Nancy
Basically, despite latter LGBTIQ social activism, Kurt Cobain of Nirvana was Closeted, in Denial, and avoided acknowledging his own heavily cloaked Homosexual Tendencies (I have concluded that all Men harbor, to some degree, Homosexual Tendencies), although he seemed very “Masculine” (didn’t he?), besides marrying Courtney Love and fathering Frances Bean with her, in hindsight. Excerpt of Kurt Cobain’s Suicide Letter:
Speaking from the tongue of an experienced simpleton who obviously would rather be an emasculated, infantile complain-ee. This note should be pretty easy to understand… For example, when we’re backstage and the lights go out and the manic roar of the crowds begin, it doesn’t affect me the way in which it did for Freddie Mercury, who seemed to love, relish in the love and adoration from the crowd which is something I totally admire and envy. The fact is, I can’t fool you, any one of you. It simply isn’t fair to you or me. The worst crime I can think of would be to rip people off by faking it and pretending
Pretty sure I am in the minority on that interpretation. At least, genuine women acknowledge their Bisexual Roots in both Adam and subsequently Eve, who was extracted from his SIDE.
kcfm: he was talking about fame/happiness im
response: Just like everybody’s a little bit Jewish, everybody’s Almost Famous, these days. I just wonder, by the time Kurt Cobain reached the pinnacles of success, like the show, Fame, if he made baby steps to be honest about his own sexuality and how Bullying must have influenced his worldview and lyrics. Must be a challenge to reflect, when someone is placed on such a high and intoxicating pedestal (Kurt would have coped better with Social Networks and since it’s almost impossible to be recognized en masse as a bona fide Artist without drowning in Reality TV mediocrity):
Songfacts: ”Lake of Fire,” what do you remember about that?
Curt Kirkwood of The Meat Puppets, an American Rock Band formed in Phoenix, Arizona: I actually do remember that. A lot of times I don’t remember writing songs, I can’t remember anything about like, how did I come up with that? But “Lake of Fire,” we were all living together and everybody decided to go to a Halloween party, and they were all getting in costumes. And I thought, “Man, this is one of the stupidest things - adults getting dressed up like we did when we were little kids.”
I had actually got pretty wasted on something and told everybody, “No, I’m not going.” And then once I was alone, I just started messing around. I wrote a couple of songs that night. I wrote “Magic Toy Missing” and “Lake of Fire,” maybe one more. But I was just really trying to make fun of my friends for going out to a Halloween party. [Laughing]
Nirvana, an American Rock Band formed in Aberdeen, Washington, performed this song on their 1993 MTV Unplugged appearance, which was also released as an album called MTV Unplugged in New York the next year. Along with “Lake Of Fire,” Nirvana also played two other Meat Puppets songs, “Plateau” and “Oh, Me.” They were joined by Curt and Cris Kirkwood of Meat Puppets for these three songs.
Kurt Cobain was a huge Meat Puppets fan and would often mention them as an inspiration. “He was always in the moment,” Curt Kirkwood told us about Cobain. “He wasn’t very conversive, just really, really casual. I was pretty blown away by the whole thing, just on the level of how it was and wasn’t, like my concept of it. It was a strange thing to be around, because there was so much attention at any point coming from every direction.”
Following a tour stop at Terminal Eins in Munich, Germany, on March 1, 1994, Cobain was diagnosed with bronchitis and severe laryngitis. He flew to Rome the next day for medical treatment, and was joined there by his wife, Courtney Love, on March 3, 1994. The next morning, Love awoke to find that Cobain had overdosed on a combination of champagne and Rohypnol. Cobain was immediately rushed to the hospital, and spent the rest of the day unconscious. After five days in the hospital, Cobain was released and returned to Seattle. Love later stated that the incident was Cobain’s first suicide attempt.
On March 18, 1994, Love phoned the Seattle police informing them that Cobain was suicidal and had locked himself in a room with a gun. Police arrived and confiscated several guns and a bottle of pills from Cobain, who insisted that he was not suicidal and had locked himself in the room to hide from Love. When questioned by police, Love said that Cobain had never mentioned that he was suicidal and that she had not seen him with a gun.
Love arranged an intervention regarding Cobain’s drug use on March 25, 1994. The ten people involved included musician friends, record company executives, and one of Cobain’s closest friends, Dylan Carlson. The intervention was initially unsuccessful, with an angry Cobain insulting and heaping scorn on its participants and eventually locking himself in the upstairs bedroom. However, by the end of the day, Cobain had agreed to undergo a detox program. Cobain arrived at the Exodus Recovery Center in Los Angeles, California on March 30, 1994. The staff at the facility were unaware of Cobain’s history of depression and prior attempts at suicide. When visited by friends, there was no indication to them that Cobain was in any negative or suicidal state of mind. He spent the day talking to counselors about his drug abuse and personal problems, happily playing with his daughter Frances. These interactions were the last time Cobain saw his daughter. The following night, Cobain walked outside to have a cigarette, and climbed over a six-foot-high fence to leave the facility (which he had joked earlier in the day would be a stupid feat to attempt). He took a taxi to Los Angeles Airport and flew back to Seattle. On the flight, he sat next to Duff McKagan of Guns N’ Roses. Despite Cobain’s own personal animosity towards Guns N’ Roses and specifically Axl Rose, Cobain “seemed happy” to see McKagan. McKagan later stated he knew from “all of my instincts that something was wrong.” Most of his close friends and family were unaware of his whereabouts. On April 2 and April 3, 1994, Cobain was spotted in various locations around Seattle. On April 3, 1994, Love contacted private investigator Tom Grant, and hired him to find Cobain. Cobain was not seen on April 4, 1994. On April 7, 1994, amid rumors of Nirvana breaking up, the band pulled out of that year’s Lollapalooza music festival.
On April 8, 1994, Cobain’s body was discovered at his Lake Washington home by an electrician named Gary Smith who had arrived to install a security system. Apart from a minor amount of blood coming out of Cobain’s ear, the electrician reported seeing no visible signs of trauma, and initially believed that Cobain was asleep until he saw the shotgun pointing at his chin. A note was found, addressed to Cobain’s childhood imaginary friend “Boddah”, that stated that Cobain hadn’t “felt the excitement of listening to as well as creating music, along with really writing … for too many years now”. A high concentration of heroin and traces of diazepam were also found in his body. Cobain’s body had been lying there for days; the coroner’s report estimated Cobain to have died on April 5, 1994.
A public vigil was held for Cobain on April 10, 1994, at a park at Seattle Center drawing approximately seven thousand mourners. Prerecorded messages by Krist Novoselic and Courtney Love were played at the memorial. Love read portions of Cobain’s suicide note to the crowd, crying and chastising Cobain. Near the end of the vigil, Love arrived at the park and distributed some of Cobain’s clothing to those who still remained. Dave Grohl would say that the news of Cobain’s death was “probably the worst thing that has happened to me in my life. I remember the day after that I woke up and I was heartbroken that he was gone. I just felt like, ‘Okay, so I get to wake up today and have another day and he doesn’t.’” He also believed that he knew Cobain would die at an early age, saying that “sometimes you just can’t save someone from themselves,” and “in some ways, you kind of prepare yourself emotionally for that to be a reality.” Dave Reed, who for a short time was Cobain’s foster father, said that “he had the desperation, not the courage, to be himself. Once you do that, you can’t go wrong, because you can’t make any mistakes when people love you for being yourself. But for Kurt, it didn’t matter that other people loved him; he simply didn’t love himself enough.”
A final ceremony was arranged for Cobain by his mother on May 31, 1999, attended by both Courtney Love and Tracy Marander. As a Buddhist monk chanted, his daughter Frances Bean scattered his ashes into McLane Creek in Olympia, the city where he “had found his true artistic muse.”
goelot.blogspot.com/2013/11/joshua-yesterday-while-sleeping-on-bus.html: Kurt opposed Corporate Fascism by allowing himself to be entangled in that Cowshiite (you’ll notice Courtney easing into Maternal Couture, since being widowed, possibly to preserve her husband’s legacy, as well as their daughter’s future; F.B. was largely shielded Post-Tragedy and guards her private life), but was possibly himself Closeted, while struggling to express those strange, but intimate emotions (that had the potential to compliment ie encourage his and her prophetic anger and banshee qualities in an organic fashion)
